Hello to you all!
At the moment, and I cross my fingers now, it has been quiet regarding my mother in law, so there is really not much to write on this subject for now.
I´ll keep this blog, but I won´t be posting as long as nothing more happens, but I´m sure there will be more to rant about in the future.
Anyways to you who have been kind enough to follow this blog I´ll keep you posted with my "weather" code if something arises, and I´m sure things will come up as it always does with this "wonderful" monster in law I have, but for now I´m just going to enjoy the respite:).
I think I´ll start another public blog soon though about things happening in general, with a bit less ranting! I´ll let you know when it is up and running if you want to follow it.
For now take care my friends!
Monday, January 17, 2011
Thursday, January 13, 2011
Unfair!!
Today is not about me and there will be no ranting at all.. Todays short post is dedicated to a very good friend of mine, going through a difficult time in life. She has just lost her baby:(.. To you my dear friend; I am so sorry for your loss, I don´t have the words to express it but I feel for you and J from the very bottom of my heart, I phoned him as soon as I saw what happened. This is so unfair!! If you need me for anyting, I´ll be there, you can call me in the middle of the night if you want to. If you want a good cry I´m here, if you want to be chered up I´m here. I know you´ll get through this because you are a strong woman, but remember it is okey to be weak. P also want you to know that he is here for both you and J. If you want to get away from it all our offer still stands when you feel strong enough.
We love you! Take care! xxx
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
Some good, soom bad,,
I´feeling a bit better to day. Bur we HAVE gone back to square one with the monster inlaw.
She "borrowed" 100£ of him to take the train up north to her family, cause apparently they all became friends again after the funural.
When I asked him if she asked if ut was ok with me to give me a 100 pounds, he said no and that it was his own decision. I can´t understand how he can fall for her crock teaes every time.
She is constanlly threatening to kill her self, but according to his Nan she ´s been doing that for over 20 years!!
and now I get all the crap!
At least my friends are behaving normaly now, which is really nice..'
I haven´t heard anything from Pete tonite, his phone is off. He promised to ring me after the fotboll, I´m a bit worried now.. I hope he just forgot and fell asleep:(:(..
She "borrowed" 100£ of him to take the train up north to her family, cause apparently they all became friends again after the funural.
When I asked him if she asked if ut was ok with me to give me a 100 pounds, he said no and that it was his own decision. I can´t understand how he can fall for her crock teaes every time.
She is constanlly threatening to kill her self, but according to his Nan she ´s been doing that for over 20 years!!
and now I get all the crap!
At least my friends are behaving normaly now, which is really nice..'
I haven´t heard anything from Pete tonite, his phone is off. He promised to ring me after the fotboll, I´m a bit worried now.. I hope he just forgot and fell asleep:(:(..
Sunday, January 9, 2011
Strange weekend :/.
I don´t know what´s wrong with people at the moment. Is it something in the air?
It is either me who is highly stressed out and paranoid or the world (read friends) has become really strange.
It feels like people have issues with me, one friends partner has had an issue for a year for a tiny thing apparantly, because he didn´t ask me himself, and had my friend to run his errands for him. It would have been easily fixed had he not kept it to himself behaving like a child during this period. My mate thought he was silly too, and we have now decided that he can tell me himself if something is bothering him.
Other friends just feel distant at the moment and with all this shit happening with my mother in law I just don´t have any energy to face that at the moment.
I´m mad at my hubby too. Called him just now and he couldn´t really speak to me cause he was at his mums place and I could hear in the backround that she was drunk. I was talking and he couldn´t focus. He said he would call me later tonight though, I hope he remembers to.
I feel very, very lonely at the moment! Please give me strengh someone!!!
It is either me who is highly stressed out and paranoid or the world (read friends) has become really strange.
It feels like people have issues with me, one friends partner has had an issue for a year for a tiny thing apparantly, because he didn´t ask me himself, and had my friend to run his errands for him. It would have been easily fixed had he not kept it to himself behaving like a child during this period. My mate thought he was silly too, and we have now decided that he can tell me himself if something is bothering him.
Other friends just feel distant at the moment and with all this shit happening with my mother in law I just don´t have any energy to face that at the moment.
I´m mad at my hubby too. Called him just now and he couldn´t really speak to me cause he was at his mums place and I could hear in the backround that she was drunk. I was talking and he couldn´t focus. He said he would call me later tonight though, I hope he remembers to.
I feel very, very lonely at the moment! Please give me strengh someone!!!
Not a good day:(
I´ve had a really shitty day today.It doesn´t have anything to do with my "situation". Lets just say I´ve been sad and depressed most of the day. I needed someone to talk to, a friend, I reached out and called a couple of mates,
The first call I made was to a close girlfriend of mine, but I could hear from the very start that she wasn´t really in the mood to talk so I didn´t even bother to get in to a conversation. She asked if we could speak another day, normally I wouldn´t have minded but as i felt emotional already she unintentionally made me feel more sad.
The second call I made was to a friend I´ve known for 13 years, and to begin with he listened to me, but halfway into my heartfelt story he cut me off saying dinner was ready and could we speak tomorrow instead, we hung up and now I was REALLY UPSET:(.. Feeling unwanted and dismissed.
Luckily the last third and last call I made to one of my best friends I´ve had since the age of 7 (by then I was in crying), took her time to listen and comfort me, despite having a 3 yearold to look after. She saved me from crashing tonight and I´m so greatful to have her in my life.
I´m a very sensitive person, I also suffer from an IPS and I´have trust issues. I´ve lost many "friends" in the past because Iused to be so intense with my emotions. Later on I learned how to stifle myself and bottle it all in, so now a days I have to go to therapy to undo all this and let my feelings out again, which is very scary because of past experiences. Hence me exploding in anger as I did with my mother in law is an event so rare you´re more likely to win the jackpot in a lottery than ever see me like that. It doesn´t mean I don´t get angry, I´m angry just as often as the avarage person I´m just good at controlling myself after years of practising.
I hope tomorrow will be a better day
Saturday, January 8, 2011
Here we go again!
My darling husband has done it again..
Forgiven her I mean! I don´t blame him I guess after all she is his mother, but it worries me.
I lost my temper badly with her over Christmas and said alot of truths she needed to hear. She´d been ranting and screaming at his little 13 year old brother for over 4 hours, when I exploded in her face. I don´t regret what I said, I just wish it wouldn´t have had to happen at all. So now I´m the bad one. You see she has a patent on being angry, doing irrational things, nobody else is alowed.
But the things she said to her son.... I could never! No one should have to hear and be called things like that from their own mother, no matter what you´d done..
So I lost it! I called her an evil bitch and screamed at her, asking if she never could shut up and listen to someone else. After that I said to P that I was leaving and that I did, last words from her was that I didn´t know how lucky I was. P left soon after saying that this time he had enough.
If I had a penny for everytime I´ve heard these words.
She called a week later, tried to talk badly of me, that didn´t work. So she called again 2 days ago appologizing to him. And tomorrow he is going there for Sunday dinner! Oh, happy days!
I wonder if the angel or the devil in her will be hosting that dinner? You see, you never know with her as her mood changes very fast.
So now I sit here in another country, feeling anxious, not being able to do a thing to prevent eventual disaster.
Come what may!
Forgiven her I mean! I don´t blame him I guess after all she is his mother, but it worries me.
I lost my temper badly with her over Christmas and said alot of truths she needed to hear. She´d been ranting and screaming at his little 13 year old brother for over 4 hours, when I exploded in her face. I don´t regret what I said, I just wish it wouldn´t have had to happen at all. So now I´m the bad one. You see she has a patent on being angry, doing irrational things, nobody else is alowed.
But the things she said to her son.... I could never! No one should have to hear and be called things like that from their own mother, no matter what you´d done..
So I lost it! I called her an evil bitch and screamed at her, asking if she never could shut up and listen to someone else. After that I said to P that I was leaving and that I did, last words from her was that I didn´t know how lucky I was. P left soon after saying that this time he had enough.
If I had a penny for everytime I´ve heard these words.
She called a week later, tried to talk badly of me, that didn´t work. So she called again 2 days ago appologizing to him. And tomorrow he is going there for Sunday dinner! Oh, happy days!
I wonder if the angel or the devil in her will be hosting that dinner? You see, you never know with her as her mood changes very fast.
So now I sit here in another country, feeling anxious, not being able to do a thing to prevent eventual disaster.
Come what may!
Friday, January 7, 2011
Evil and manipulating monster
Welcome!
My mother in law is a monster, I´m not kidding..
She started out fine, I trusted her and was happy to have her. I refused to listen to bad rumors about her and thought she was just missunderstood.
Then, it all changed!!
This is going to be my sanctuary, where I can rant and share my experiences about this woman. People following this blog are also welcome to ventilate about people in or outside their family!
No names will be mentioned and what is written in here, stays in here!
My mother in law is a monster, I´m not kidding..
She started out fine, I trusted her and was happy to have her. I refused to listen to bad rumors about her and thought she was just missunderstood.
Then, it all changed!!
This is going to be my sanctuary, where I can rant and share my experiences about this woman. People following this blog are also welcome to ventilate about people in or outside their family!
No names will be mentioned and what is written in here, stays in here!
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